Benjamin “Coach” Wade thought he was executed with actuality TV for good till Survivor 50 got here calling.
“Once they first known as me, I assumed, ‘Ought to I am going?’ I’m a really non secular particular person, so after all, I prayed about it, and I didn’t really feel satisfied I ought to go,” Coach, 54, completely instructed Us Weekly forward of the Survivor 50 premiere on Wednesday, February 25. “And at the back of my thoughts, and I used to be very clear with the powers (that) be, I’m not going to say sure to (season 50.)”
Coach added that he was “formally retired” from Survivor and was “hiding out in Northern California.” Nonetheless, after mulling over the supply, Coach began to have a change of coronary heart.
“Remorse might be one of many strongest feelings that we now have. (It) sits across the nook of our thoughts after the actual fact and whispers little lies of what we must always have executed or what we might have executed,” he defined. “So I began excited about that remorse. Would I ultimately remorse not saying sure?”
Since Coach’s final look on Survivor: South Pacific in 2011, the musician has grown so much. He tied the knot with spouse Jessica Newton in December 2011, and the couple have welcomed three kids.
“I’m in an incredible spot in my life. I’m very content material. I’m not that ego-driven particular person that you simply noticed on the display the previous couple of occasions,” he mirrored. “I really feel grounded, and I need to share that with the world. The world may be, generally, a darkish place, and I need to share these basic truths that I really feel, that I’ve discovered during the last decade and a half.”
Coach added that turning into a “household man” led him to grow to be the perfect model of himself.
“I really feel like I used to be grounded in who I used to be as a person. However I used to be grounding myself, in myself I used to be grounding me and me, as a substitute of, ‘Hey, let me be a servant, let me have a household.’ And it actually shifted my perspective with life.”
After getting the decision for Survivor 50he “shifted” once more and finally stated sure. Coach added that his return to actuality TV was not only for himself — however for his household.
“There’s quite a lot of sacrifice for everyone to be out right here, however I really feel at 54, you realize, my sacrifices are actually troublesome for me to be out right here, away from my household,” he instructed Us. “I can’t get this time again, and it’s one thing that gnaws on me each day.”
Coach shared that followers mustn’t count on to see the identical “polarizing” character they’ve seen in previous seasons as he’s bringing his new self into season 50.
“I take a look at the errors I’ve made previously, my lack of fluidity, after I grew to become very inflexible, making guarantees that I couldn’t maintain standing on at occasions, a false sense of honor and integrity, not admitting to only having to control or deceive folks sometimes,” he mirrored. “I’m not going to throw that out the window, however I feel in the appropriate clothes, the best way that I’ve performed previously, so long as I keep fluid and, you realize, align with folks that folks wouldn’t count on me to align with and to proceed to evolve all through the sport. I feel I’ve acquired a superb likelihood to make it deep.”
Survivor 50: Within the Palms of the Followers’ three-hour premiere airs on CBS with a Wednesday, February 25, at 8 p.m. ET. The sequence will then return to its regular 90-minute format starting March 4.